Women

Basically over the past year I have tried to stay away from women, no I'm not gay. They always piss you off. I will not name any names in this segment because it isn't necessary. So this past semester I started to fall for this girl. She is very pretty and I really liked hanging out with her. Basically nothing happened till summer was starting. I found out ways to hang out with her more and more and with this I started to like her more and more. Eventually I worked up the courage to ask her on a date, which she agreed on. First off, I have ZERO self-confidence when it comes to girls that I like. If the girl is just a friend I have no problems and act perfectly normal around them. If I like the girl it is a totally different story. I get really nervous around then, stutter all over my speech, and best of all fidget. We go out and have a wonderful time. About a week later stuff isn't going so well and we demote ourselves to friend status. This isn't what makes me upset though. The fact that I really like this girl is what makes me upset. Getting to see her is the highlight of my week. When I find out that I'm going to get to see her I cheer up and can't wait for the day. I day dream about this girl all the time at work and at home.

I'm in between a rock and a hard place right now. It is upsetting that I try again and boom it fails. Still my failure rating isn't as bad some other people. That must have sucked trying to make the first light-bulb, thank God I can go to Home Depot and buy one. I guess I will have to take a word of advise from Monty Python, "Always Look on the Bright Side of Life." From Spamalot, which is a totally different topic in itself.